Summer

Who knew summer would be busier than any other season? I sure didn't. I also never took into account that it would take more than a simply sign up form to get my son into preschool. *Sigh* I have all the paperwork at long last. Sort of. I need to find and make copies of his birth certificate... Yeah, so once I find that I send it all in and he's in right? I sure hope so. Its not like I'm applying to a high class private preschool with a long line of Ivy league grads marching through. Its a simple program put on through the college.

Now you might be wondering why I am putting him into a public school even though I have been home schooling him. The answer is simple, my sanity. Sam is a very active social child. I am not an active social person. I am very happy to stay home with my babies and not talk to a real person (sorry online mom friends, you're not real if I cant see you in person) Tiny (the baby) and I are both happy to be less social, but Sam was a day care kid for 3 years, he thrives of interaction with other children his age.

Add to my non active (this does not mean lazy, it simply means I don't feel the need to run around, or go out to places. I am a bookworm at heart and have always been the one to sit and play to read quietly) and the fact that it is hot outside (I don't do well with heat, it makes me grumpy and sick) This makes for a very unhappy Sam. He wants to run and jump and yell. I want us to snuggle in the air conditioned room with books and quiet movies. This also means not talking through the movies. We are not a "good fit" as they put it. our personalities are very different.

I'm sorry if this sounds like I'm complaining, I just want to be as honest as I can be here. I feel like we are expected to smile and pretend that its easy to be a parent and that we still live in the 50s where mom got up, dressed, and all make-up'd before she made breakfast and got the family off to school. I can't do that. I can't even remember to set the table and do the dishes daily.